Church of Birch

Dec 05 2013
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the world has lost one of its brightest diamonds. You will always be one of the greatest inspirations to me and made me proud to be South African despite the hideousness of apartheid. You epitomized grace, dignity, forgiveness and were the essence of love. please say hello to my father. You were his greatest hero. many tears are shed for your loss and with endless gratitude and humbled awe at the profound legacy you have left. Nelson Mandela, thank you for the gift of life and love you gave the world. You will never be forgotten #madiba #rip

Nov 19 2013
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check out my feature on www.oncelovedlaundry.com and grab some goodies from my closet !

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Deborah Tuberville divinity

Mar 24 2013

love this beautiful oil painting by my dear friend Brian Close 

Dec 10 2012

Dear Friends,

I initially thought I wouldn’t share this personal news with my followers, but as I started thinking about, it I realized that you all have become a part of my extended family and as i’m already an open book, I may as well not stop now.

So, I have recently received the heartbreaking news that my beloved Father, has been diagnosed with pancreatic cancer. It’s been overwhelming for me to handle.  Every day is a new shade of grey with a new set of emotions to tackle..But I am SO blessed with the most loving family & most incredible mom who are all fighting to bring him back to health despite the odds. Nothing but a miracle, but I believe in miracles and the power of God, Love, the strength of the human spirit and the incredible gifts that nature and research has provided us for healing.

I have now joined the cancer community and even after 2 wks of endless research,  hours and hours of reading testimonials, hearing unbelievable recovery stories etc, I’m committed to being a part of this network and doing whatever I can to share in this struggle with my dad and everyone affected by this horrific disease.  

Somehow, I have also been finding myself impressed with a profound amount of gratitude for the things great and small that i’ve so often taken for granted.  I’ve spent a lot of time, over the last few years especially, fighting off the moans of creative frustration, HEARTBREAK, depression, anxiety, day to day dramas, music business nonsense, and whatever else can be fueled by too much attention and spiritual unrest.  BUT, as I sit here now in an impending darkness far greater than all those emotions combined, I’m humbled by defeat and forced to open my eyes and heart.   For every moment that I have hope and health and love and family and friends and air and lights, food, bottled fucking water, rain on my window, a bed, a record deal, a band, songs, a voice, 10 fingers 10 toes, hands, strength and music and art and WILL and beautiful people who actually listen to what I make, for every glimmer of everything and so much more….I am truly THANKFUL.  You just never know when something could be taken away. 

Please keep my precious Dad in your thoughts and prayers.  He is the purest, kindest and most honorable human being I’ve ever known.  Somehow I got lucky enough to be his daughter.  

DB

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candle lit for him at Notre Dame.  thank you Thomas :) http://www.klovermode.blogspot.com/

xxxx

Aug 21 2012

Whoever reads this has no life …

I’ve been thinking about time 
Dying 
Being dead living 
What if I’m the lock &
you’re the key what if we don’t find those places because we don’t believe they’re there and why do I always dream of water bringing the world to the end? 
It’s all an attempt to stay safe. I never was a dare devil except when I got dressed as a teenager. Sometimes I walk the line of knowing so balanced and clear. In those moments I see you as I always have but I can’t say if you will ever be you or just another version of me. my mind is so rugged it puts me to sleep and pain is a welcome reminder that I still got chances.
I watch it all in fast forward and birth and death happen simultaneously. I watch it all in slow motion nostalgia like the rest of the whole goddam collective mind universe but the only reason I even give a shit or care to advance is cus it hurts so much to be alone in confusion and the possibilities of answers hanging out with me, really do keep me coasting, boasting my discoveries. Safety and sustenance. well I’m off topic now (whatever that is) but the point is (whatever that is) that I don’t want to create you and shade in scratch out go blind only to realize you’re scattered across an endless sea and I’m just clocking another vacant stare. God knows i’ve had my fill for a lifetime. This place crowns the emptiest of heads because we wanna keep looking at shiny things…wanna pay out for the basics. strip down without taking off. But sometimes it’s just dumb & I don’t know when its the right moment to jump. When I was a kid I said I wanted to be left under a tree when I died.  I just wanted the open air to lick me into the past. I guess I live that way sometimes and it really breaks my heart. 
I attach myself to these signs you see…. flashes of light that come & go like cries for rescue & recognition and leave me to twist in the sticky net of opposites, dreams & fuckloads of pride.  
Well it’s never free
It’s never really understood 
It’s always 4am
It’s always your move
It’s always time for a pill 

man, I just wanna make out so bad 

Jul 22 2012

Just found this sweet vid online that Thomas Humery of http://klovermode.blogspot.com/   made for my new song “Speak a Little Louder” ! Thanks Thomas! So French yet so American yet so universally sentimental ;;; ))))))))

Jun 11 2012

May 14 2012

 P A U L I N A O T Y L I E S U R Y S  

source all: www.paulinasurys.co.uk

May 03 2012

The Woodstock Good Witch

I took a recent trip up to Woodstock with friends and had an impromptu forest photoshoot!  

Here are the results taken by the fabulously talented photographer Jeff Elstone ! 

www.jeffelstone.com 

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